I'll go for miles 'till I find you
You say you want to leave me
But ya can't choose..

I've gone thru pain every day & night
I feel my mind is going insane
Something I can't fight

Don't leave me X 3
A blank expression covering your face
I'm looking for directions for out of this place
I start to wonder...
If you'll come back
I feel the rain storming:
After thunder I can't hold back
chorus

 

Looking back upon my life
And the places that I've been
Pictures, faces girls that I've loved
I try to remember when
Faded memories on the wall
Some names I have forgotten
But each one is a memory I
Look back on so often.
I look into the past
I want to make it last
I was there
Looking back what I have done
There's lots more life to live
At times I feel overwhelmed
I question what I can give
But I don't let it get me down
Or cause me too much sorrow
There's no doubt about who I am
I always have tomorrow
Looking back upon my life
Faded memories upon the wall
Looking now at who I am
I don't let it get me down.

 

Now you see me now you don't
Don't ask me where I'm at
'Cause I'm a million miles away
Treated like a forbidden heel
Don't say my thoughts are not for real
Or you won't see me again
Am I here or am I there
Or am I playing on the stairs
Am I in my room with my toys
I am the disappearing boy
When I walk in crowded rooms
I feel as if it is my doom

I know that I don't belong
In that room I see her
I see her & she's with him
I turn and then I'm gone
Don't call me up 'cause I'm not home
My whereabouts are now unknown
I vanished from all your joy
I'm the disappearing boy
I have my doubts
Of where I belong
It's something to think about

 

 

Lay around
Looks like I found something new
Laying in my bed
I think I'm in left field
I picture someone, I think it's you
You're standing so damn close
My body begins to swell
Why does 1 + 1 make 2

 

Here we go again, infatuation
Touches me just when I
Thought that it would end
Oh but then again it seems
Much more than that but
I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking
I toss and turn all night
Thinking of your ways of effection
But to find that it's not different at all

I throw away my past mistakes
And contemplate my future
That's when I say...
What the Hey!?!
Would I last forever?
You and I together, hand and hand
We run away -far away-
I'm in for nasty weather
But I'll take whatever you can
Give that comes my way -far away-

 

 

Why are these times so unfair
Look at my friends and see what they've done
Ask myself why they had to change
I like them better when they were young
Now all these times are rearranged
I look down and stand there and cry
Nothing ever will be the same
The sun is rising, now I ask why?
The clouds now fall and here comes the rain

 

If you'd stop a while
And maybe if you'd smile
You would realize that
We're all the same
It's just like our brain
When it goes insane
We feel the same pain
All my life I've seem to have this heed
I think at times it even turns to greed
We all want to join some family
We'll even sacrifice a moral changing

 

 

Angel! Dancing away
As all of my thoughts are rearranged
Angel! turning away
To have changed
So I can rest my head

 

Today as I was walking down
You bumped into me
You said, 'excuse me' and walked away
As I dropped to my knees
I prayed to the being in the sky
That my parents told me of
I asked about you but no reply
No clues about your love
My girlfriend left me on the phone
I'm pathetically left here alone
(I cannot call this sane)
Can we find a way
So that you can stay
I think I'm gonna Pop

 

 

Never let go
Cause she's 2000 light years away
I sit outside and watch the sunrise
Lookout as far as I can
I can't see her, but in the distance
I hear some laughter,
We laugh together

 

Juliet's trying to find out what she wants, but she don't know
Experience has got her down
Look this direction, I know it's not perfection, it's just me...
I want to bring you up again now
I'm losing what's left of my dignity
A small price to pay to see that you're happy

Forget all the disappointments you have faced
Open up your worried world and let me in
Juliet's crying cause now she's realizing love can be
Filled with pain and distrust
I know I am crazy, and a bit lazy
But I will try to bring you up again now.

 

 

It's been six whole months since I have left your home
It makes me wonder why I'm still here
For some strange reason it's still now feeling like my home
I'm never gonna go
Dear mother, can you hear me whinin'?
It's been three whole weeks since I have left your home
This sudden fear has left me tremblin'
Cause now it seems I am out here on my own
And I'm feeling so alone

 

 

The sun went down and the night fills the sky
Now I feel like me once again
As the train comes rolling in
Smoked my boredom gone
Slapped my brains up so high
Mother stay out of my way of that place we go
We'll always seem to find our way to Christie Road
If there's one thing that I need that makes me feel complete
So I go to Christie Road
It's home...

 

 

And through my veins temptation flows
So I sit down here on the hard concrete
Think of my future now
I just don't know
I don't seem to care
So I sit across the street from your home
I wonder if you're sitting all alone
Or is your boyfriend there

 

 

So drive those staples deep
I want you to slap me and call me naughty
Put a beltsander against my skin
I want to feel pain all over my body
Can't wait to be punished for my sins.

 

When I was younger I thought the world circled around me
But in time I realized I was wrong
My immortal thoughts turned into just dreams of a dead future
It was a tragic case of my reality
Do you think you're indestructable
And no one can touch you
Well I think you're disposeable
And it's time you knew the truth
Cause it's just one of my lies!

Why does my life have to be so small?
Yet death is forever
And does forever have a life to call its own?
Don't give me an answer cause you
Only know as much as I know
Unless you're been there once
Well I hardly think so
I used to pray all night
Before I lay myself down
My mother said it was right
Her mother said it too...
Why?

 

My mental stability reaches its bitter end
And all my senses are coming unglued
Is there any cure for this disease someone called love
Not as long as there are girls like you
Everything she does questions my mental health
It makes me lose control
I just can't trust myself
If someone can hear me slap some sense into me
But you turn your head and I end up talking to myself
Anxiety has got me strung out and frustrated

So I loose my head or I bang it up against the wall
Sometimes I wonder if I should be left alone
And lock myself up in a padded room
I'd sit and spew my guts out to the open air
No one wants to hear a drunken fool.
I do not mind if this goes on
Cause now it seems I'm too far gone
I must admit I enjoy myself
80 please keep taking me away.

 

Hey old man in woman's shoes
I wonder if he knows I think he's crazy
When he was young did her have dreams
Of wearing woman's shoes and being crazy?
It makes me wonder when I grow to be that age
Will I be walking down the street begging for your spare change
Or will I grow that old?
Will I still be around?
The way I carry on I'll end up
Six feet underground

And waste away...
When the old man was in school
Did the golden rule make him go crazy
Or did he hide away from hopes
Behind a smile and smoking dope
It's crazy
It seems so frightening
Time passes by like lightning
Before you know it you're struck down
I always waste my time on my chemical emotions
It keeps my head spinning around.

 

 

I don't want to cause no harm
But sometimes my actions hurt
Is there something I should find
To make plans for forever
Does it seem like all your memories fade
You soak up knowledge to fill the space
And still my answer remains...
I don't know.

 

 

He makes a plan to take a stand but always ends up sitting.
Someone help him up or he's gonna end up quitting
I shuffle through my mind
To see if I can find
The words I left behind
Was it just a dream that happened long ago?
Oh well...
Never mind.

 

 

As for me... I am blind without a cause
And now I reazlied what I have lost
It was something real that I could have had
Now I play the fool whose stable soul's gone bad
Why?
Tell me the words I might have said
That's pumping pressure deep inside my head
Was it bad enough to be too late?
Just tell me the words I might have ate.

 

I declare I don't care no more
I'm burning up and out and growing bored
In my smoked out boring room
My hair is shagging in my eyes
Dragging my feet to hit the street tonight
To drive along these shit town lights
I'm not growing up, I'm just burning out

And I stepped in line to walk amongst the dead
Apathy has rained on me
Now I'm feeling like a soggy dream
So close to drowning but
I don't mind
I've lived in this mental cave
Throw emotions in the grave
Hell, who needs them anyway

 

 

Loniliness still conforts me
My anger dwells inside of me
I'm taking it all out on you and all the shit you put me though
Do you ever think back to another time ?
Did it bring you so down that you thought you lost your mind ?
Do you ever want to lead a long trail of destruction
and mow down any bullshit that confronts you ?
Do you ever build up all the small things in your head
To make one problem that adds up to nothing

 

 

Sit around and watch the phone, but no one's calling
Call me pathetic, call me what you will
My mother says to get a job
But she don't like the one she's got
When masturbation's lost its fun
You're fucking breaking
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored
I'm going blind
And loneliness has to suffice
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Slipping away to paradise
Some say, "Quit or I'll go blind."
But it's just a myth

 

 

Another urchin snaps and left dead on his own
It makes me wonder why I'm still here
For some strange reason it's now
Feeling like my home
And I'm never gonna go
Dear mother, can you hear me laughing
It's been six whole months since
I have left your home
It makes me wonder why I'm still here
For some strange reason it's now
Feeling like my home
And I'm never gonna go

 

I'm all busted up
Broken bones & nasty cuts
Accidents will happen
But this time I can't get up
She comes to check on me making sure I'm on my knees
After all she's the one who put me in this state
Is she ultra-violent ?
Is she disturbed ?
I better tell her I love her
Before she does it all over again

Oh god, she's killing me !!!
For now I'll lie around
Hell, that's all I can really do
She takes good care of me
Just keep saying me love is true
Looking out my window fo
Someone that passing by
No one knows I'm locked in here
All I do is cry

 

She screams in silence
A sullen riot penetrating through her mind
Waiting for a sign to smash the silence
with the brick of self control
Are you locked up in a world
That's been planned out for you ?
Are you feeling like a social tool without use ?

Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you
She's figured out all her doubts
Were someone else's point of view
Waking up this time to smash the silence
with the brick of self control

 

 

Am I just paranoid ?
I'm just stoned
I went to a shrink
To analyze my dreams
She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down
I went to a whore
He said my life's a bore
And quit my whining cause it's bringing her down
Grasping to control
So you better hold on

 

 

May I waste your time too ?
Warding off regrets
Wasting your time
Smoking cigarettes
Wasting your time
I'm just a parasite
Wasting your time
Applying myself to
Wasting your time

 

 

I heard you crying loud all the way across town
You've been searching for that someone
and it's me out on the powl
As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself
Don't get lonely now
Dry your whining eyes
I'm just roaming for the moment
Sleazin' my backyard so don't get so uptight
you been thinking about ditching me
No time to search the world around

 

I saw my friend the other day and I don't know
Exactly just what he became
It goes to show
It wasn't that long ago
I was just like you
And now I think I'm sick and
I wanna go home
How have I been, how have you been
It's been so long
What have you done with all your time

I knew you back when
And you... you knew me
And now I think you're sick
I wanna go home
Anybody ever say no ?
Ever tell you that you weren't right ?
Where did all the little kid go ?
Did you lose it in a hatefull fight ?
And you know it's true

 

 

Mom and dad will never understand
What's happening to me
Seventeen and coming clean for the first time
I finally figured out myself for the first time
I found out what it takes to be a man
Mom and dad will never understand
What's happened to me

 

 

I hope I won't be there
In the end if you come around
How long will he last
Before he's a creep in the past
And you're alone once again ?
Will you pop up again and be my
"special friend" 'till the end ?
And when will that be ?

 

I'm taking pride,
In telling you to fuck off and die.

I've had this burning in my guts now for so long
My belly's aching now to sing
I'm taking pleasure in passing these doubts to you,
So listen up 'cause you might miss...

You're just...a fuck.
I can't explain it 'cause i think you suck.
I'm taking pride,
In telling you to fuck off and die.

Good...night.

(long silence)

I was alone, i was all by myself
No one was looking, i was thinking of you
Oh yeah, did i mention i was all by myself
All by myself (sev times)

I went to your house, but no one was there
I went to your room
I was all by myself
You and me had (?), such wonderful times
When i'm all by myself, all by myself ...

 

 

 

I'm a loner in a catastrophic mind
Elected the rejected
I perfected the science of the idiot
No meaning...no healing
Self loathing freak and introverted deviot

 

Mom and Dad don't look so hot these days
They're getting over the hill
Death is closing in and catching up
As far as I can tell
Got a plan of action and cold blood
And it smells of defiance
I'll just wait for Mom and Dad to die
And got my inheritance
Now I want more
'Cause I'm getting bored
And I'm going nowhere fast
I was once filled with doubt

Now it's all figured out
Nothing good can last
Crows feet and rot are setting in
And time is running out
My parent's income interest rate
Is gaining higher clout
I'm a snot nosed slob
Without a job
And I know I damn well should
Mom and Dad don't look so hot these days
But my future's looking good

 

I know I'm not alright
What's my price and will you pay it if it's alright?
Take it from my dignity
waste it until it's dead
Throw me back into the gutter
'Cause it's alright
Find another pleasure fucker
Drag them down to hell

 

I'm on a mission
I made my decision
To lead a path of self destruction
A slow progression
Killing my complexion
And it's rotting out my teeth
I'm on a roll
No self comtrol
I'm blowing off steam with methamphetamine
Don't know what I want
That's all that I've got
And I'm picking scabs off my face

Every hour my blood is turning sour
And my pulse is beating out of time
I found a treasure
filled with sick pleasure
And it sits on a thin white line
I'm on a mission
I got no decision
Like a cripple running the rat race
Wish in one hand shit in the other
And see which one gets filled first

 

 

Before your chance to stand up and fight
I know I'm not the one
I got no pride
Sects of disconnection
And traditions of lost faith
No culture's worth a stream of piss
Or a bullet in my face
To hell with unity
Seperation's gonna kill us all
Torn to shreds and disjointed
Before the final fall

 

I've got a knack for fucking everything up
My temper flies and I get myself all wound up
My fuse is short and my blood pressure is high
I lose control and I get myself all wound up
Tension mounts and I fly off the wall
I self destruct and I get myself all wound up
Petulance and irritation sets in
I throw a tantrum and I get myself all wound up
Chip on my shoulder and a leech on my back

Stuck in a rut and I get myself all wound up
Killed my composure and it will never come back
Loss of control and I get myelf all wound up
Blown out of proportion again
My temper snaps and I get myself all wound up
Spontaneous combustion
Panic attack
I slipped a gear and I get myself all wound up

 

 

What brings you around?
Did you lose something the last time you were here?
You'll never find it now
It's buried deep with your identity
So stand aside and let the next one pass
Don't ket the door kick you in the ass

There's no return from 86
Don't even try
Exit out the back
And never show your head around again
Purchase your ticket and
Quickly take the last train out of town

 

With such a desolate conclusion
Fill the void with... I don't care
There's a plague inside of me
Eating at my disposition
Nothing's left
Torn out of reality
Into a state of no opinion
Limp with hate

 

Standing on the corner of
Stuart and the Avenue
Ripping up my transfer
And a photograph of you
You're a blur of my dead past and rotting existance
As I stand laughing on the corner of insignificance
Destiny is dead
In the hands of bad luck
Before it might have made some sense


But now it's all fucked up
Seasons change as well as minds
And I'm a two faced clown
You're mommy's little nightmare
Driving daddy's car around
I'm beat down and half brain dead
The long lost king of fools
I may be dumb
But I'm not stupid enough to stay with you

 

My face is numb
Fucked up and spun out in my room
On my own... here we go
My mind is set on overdrive
The clock is laughing in my face
A crooked spine
My sense dulled
Passed the point of delerium
On my own... here we go

 

 

Evolution killed it all
I found my place in nowhere
I'm taking one step sideways
Leading with my crutch
Got a fucked up equilibrium
Count down from 9 to 5
Hooray! We're gonna die!
Blessed into our extinction

 

Strung out
On confusion road
And ten minute nervous breakdowns
Xanex a beer for thought
And she determined... She's taking off
Is it salvation?
Or an escape from discontent?
Will she find her name
In the California cement?
Punched out of the grind
That punched her one too many times...
Is tragedy 2000 miles away?
She's taking off

 

Cheapskate on the hill
A thrill seeker making deals
Sugar city urchin wasting time
Town of lunatics
Begging for another fix
Turning tricks for speedballs
One more night
Making your rounds once again
Turning up empty handed
Bumming a ride

Burning daylight
Last up at dawn... tight wad hill
Drugstore hooligan
Another white trash mannequin
On display to rot up on the hill
Living out a lie
But having the time of his life
Hating every minute of his existance

 

 

Control the chaos behind a gun
Call it as I see it even if
I was born deaf, blind and dumb
Losers winning big on the lottery
Rehab rejects still sniffing glue
Constant refutation with myself
I'm a vicitm of a catch 22
I have no belief
But I believe
I'm a walking contradiction
And I ain't got no right

 

I never knew you were such a funny guy
Oh nice guys finish last, when you run out of gas
Don't pat yourself on the back, you might break your spine
Living on command
You're shaking lots of hands
Kissing up and bleeding all your trust, taking what you need
Bit the hand that feeds
You lose your memory, you got your shame

 

Hey mister, where you headed?
Are you in a hurry?
I need a lift to happy hour
Say oh no
Do you brake for distilled spirits?
I need a break as well
The well that inebriates the guilt
1, 2 1, 2, 3, 4
Cold turkey's getting stale, tonight I'm eating crow
Fermented salmonella poison oak no
There's a drought at the fountain of youth, I'm dehydrating

My tongue is swelling up, as say 1, 2 1, 2, 3, 4
Troubled times, you know i can not lie
I'm off the wagon and I'm hitchin' a ride
There's a drought at the fountain of youth, and now I'm dehydrating
My tongue is swelling up, I say Shit!

 

I had a young and optimistic point of view
I've decomposed, yet my gut's getting fat
Oh my god I'm turning out like my dad.
I'm always rude I've got a bad attitude.
The world owes me so fuck you.
The wife's a nag and the kid's fucking up.
I dont have sex cause i cant get it up.
I'm just a grouch sitting on the couch
The world owes me so fuck you

 

 

Prototypes of what we were
Went full circle 'til I'm nauseous
Taken for granted now
Now I waste it, faked it, ate it, now I hate it
Now I cannot speak, I lost my voice
I'm speechless and redundant, 'cause I love you's not enough
I'm lost for words, now I cannot speak

 

It's all I've got and I'm giving it up to you
Loose ends tied in knots
Leaving a lump down in my throat
Gagging on a souvenir
Lodged to fill another year
Drag it on and on until my skin is ripped to shreds
Leaving myself wide open
Living out a sacrifice
If you got no one and I've got no place to go, would it be alright?
Could it be alright?

 

Live it up on another let down
Salud
Promises, promises, it was all set in stone, cross my heart and hope
to die
Sugar fix, dirty tricks and a trick question
Guess i should have read between the lines
Having the time of my life, watching the clock tick
All the time, where did all the time go?
It's too late to say good night
Time flies when you're having fun
Time's up when you work like a dog
Salud

 

Fat lips and open wounds
Another wasted night and no one will take the fall
Where do we go from here?
And what did you do with the directions?
Promise me no dead end streets
And I'll guarantee we'll have the road

 

Shit out of luck
And now your time is up
It brings me pleasure just to know your going to die
Dickhead, Fuckface, cock smoking, mother fucking,
Asshole, dirty twat, waste of semen, I hope you die hey
Red eye, code blue
I'd like to strangle you
And watch your eyes bulge right out of your skull
When you go down
Head first into the ground
I'll stand above you just to piss on your grave

 

Owe, I paid off all my debts to myself
Perfect picture of bad health, another notch scratched on my belt
The future's in my living room
Uptight, I'm a nag with a gun
All night, suicide's last call
I've been uptight all night
I'm a son of a gun
Uptight I'm a nag with a gun

 

Instrumental

 

Keep you distance 'cause it's rubbing off
Or you will be damned to spend your life in hell
Or earth with me tangled at your feet
You finally met you nemesis
Disguised as your fatal long lost love
So kiss it good bye
Until death do we part
You fell for a jinx for crying out loud

 

 didn't know, I didn't know, before she went away
I know now, I know now, and it's too damn late
Will she ever find her way?
I'm too damn young to be too late, but am I?
Yet again I'm kicking myself
And I'll be here in battle scars, waiting for you
Waiting for you now

 

Sometimes I still feel I'm walking alone
Walk on eggshells on my old stomping ground
Yet there's really no one left, that's hanging around
Isn't that another familiar face?
Too drunk to figure out they're fading away

 

Not my type
What's the difference between you and me?
I do what I want, and you do what you're told
So listen up and shut the hell up
It ain't no big deal
And I'll see you in hell
So when the smoke clears here I am
Your reject all-American
Falling from grace, right on my face
To hell and back and hell again I've gone

 

The taste of bad blood on the tip of my tongue
An eye for an eye
Gun for a gun
Cold-cocked and I'm taking back what's mine
Expect it when you're least expecting it
No loss of love, the smell of regret
Lights out
Can't take anymore
Shite

 

King for a day in a leather thong
King for a day, princess by dawn
Just wait 'til all the guys get a load of me
My daddy threw me in therapy
He thinks I'm not a real man
Who put the drag in the drag queen
Don't knock it until you tried it

 

Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it´s worth, it was worth all the while
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
It´s something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

 

No explanation identified 'cause you don't know
You don't say
And you got no reply
Hey you, where did you come from?
Got a head full of lead, you're a inbred bastard son
All dressed up, red blooded, Amannequin
Do or die, no reply, don't deny that you're synthetic
You're pathetic

This is a public service announcement
                           This is only a test
                           Emergency, evacuation, protest
                           May impair your ability
                           To operate machinery
                           Can't quite tell				
                           Just what it means to me
                           Keep out of reach of children
                           Don't you talk to strangers
                           Get your philosophy from a bumper sticker
                           
                           Warning, live without warning			
                           
                           Without, alright
                           
                           Better homes and safety-sealed communities
                           Did you remember to pay the utility?
                           Caution: police line
                           You better not cross
                           Is the cop or am I				
                           The one that's really dangerous?
                           Sanitation, expiration date
                           Pushing everything
                           Or shut up and be a victim of authority
                           
                           (Chorus)
                           (Verse 2) (First 2 lines through megaphone)
                           (Chorus)
                           
                           This is a public service announcement		
                           This is only a test
                           
                           
                           

Waiting in a room
                           All dressed up and bound and gagged
                           Up to a chair
                           It's so unfair				
                           I don't dare move
                           For the pain she puts me through
                           Is what I need
                           So make it bleed
                           
                           I'm in distress
                           Oh mistress, I confess
                           So do it one more time
                           These handcuffs are too tight		
                           Well, you know I will obey
                           So please don't make me pay
                           For blood, sex, and booze
                           You give me
                           
                           Some say I'm disturbed
                           But it's what I deserve			
                           Another lesson to be learned
                           From a girl called "Kill"
                           
                           My head is in the gutter
                           Thank you sir
                           Strike up another mandolin
                           Of discipline				
                           Throw me to the dogs
                           Let them eat my flesh
                           Down to the wood
                           It feels so good
                           

Today is the first day
                           Of the rest of our lives
                           Tomorrow is too late				
                           To pretend everything's all right
                           Well, I'm not getting any younger
                           As long as you don't get any older
                           I'm not gonna state that yesterday
                           Never was
                           
                           Bloodshot deadbeat
                           Will I go to sleep
                           Making your mascara bleed			
                           Tears down your face
                           Leaving traces of my mistakes
                           
                           (When I say)
                           If I promise to go to church on Sunday
                           Will you go with me on Friday night?		
                           If you live with me, I'll die for you
                           And this compromise
                           
                           I hereby solemnly swear
                           To tell the whole truth
                           And nothing but the truth
                           Is what I'll ever hear from you
                           Trust is a dirty word				
                           That comes from such a liar
                           But respect is something I will learn
                           If you have faith
                           

He's a victim of his own time
                           In his vintage suit and tie
                           He's a casualty dressed to the teeth
                           In the latest genocide				
                           The new seasons come and go
                           At the dog and pony show
                           Gonna sit and beg and fetch the names
                           And follow your dress codes
                           
                           What's in a name, hey!
                           
                           She's a scented magazine
                           Lookin sharp and livin clean
                           Livin well and dressed to kill
                           But she looks like hell to me			
                           When you're dancing through your wardrobe
                           Do the anorexa-go-go
                           Cloaked with style for pedophiles
                           As your credit card explodes
                           
                           Well you auctioned off your life
                           For the most expensive prize			
                           Going once, going twice, it's gone
                           
                           (youth crew)
                           
                           What's in a name, hey!
                           What's in a name, hey!
                           What's in a name?
                           

I'm on a sentimental journey
                           Into sight and sound
                           Of no returning
                           No looking back or down
                           A conscientious objector		
                           To the war that's in my my mind
                           I'm leaving in a lurch
                           And I'm taking back what's mine
                           
                           I'm on a mission
                           Into destination unknown
                           An expedition				
                           Onto Desolation road
                           Where I'm a...
                           
                           Castaway, goin' at it alone
                           Castaway, now I'm on my own
                           Castaway, goin' at it alone		
                           Castaway, now I'm on my own
                           Lost and found, trouble bound...
                           Castaway
                           
                           I'm ridin' on the night train
                           And driving stolen cars
                           Testin' my nerves
                           Out on the boulevard			
                           Spontaneous combustion
                           In the corners of my mind
                           I'm leaving in a lurch
                           And I'm taking back what's mine
                           

Virginia was a lot lizard from F.L.A.
                           She had a compund fracture in the trunk
                           It started when she ran away		
                           Thumbs out on the interstate
                           She hitched a ride to Misery
                           
                           Mr. Whirly had a catastrophic incident
                           He fell into the city by the bay
                           He liquidated his estate			
                           Now he sleeps up on the Haight
                           Panhandling Misery
                           
                           And he's gonna get high high high
                           When he's low low low
                           The fire burns from better days
                           And she screams why oh why			
                           I said I don't know
                           The catastrophic hymns from yesterday
                           Of Misery
                           
                           Well Vinnie was a hustler out of Amsterdam
                           He ran the drug cartel in Tinsel Town
                           They found him in a Cadillac			
                           Bludgeoned with a baseball bat
                           In the name of Misery
                           
                           Then Gina hit the road to New York City
                           Mysteriously the night Vinnie croaked
                           She stopped in Vegas to elope			
                           With Virginia and a dope
                           Who kissed the bride eternally
                           
                           And they're gonna get high high high
                           When they're low low low
                           The fire burns from better days
                           And she screams why oh why			
                           I said I don't know
                           The catastrophic hymns from yesterday
                           Of Misery
                           
                           Well hell's hounds on your trail now once again, boy
                           It's groping on your leg until it sleeps	
                           The emptiness will fill your soul with sorrow
                           'Cuz it's not what you make, it's what you leave
                           
                           And we're gonna get high high high
                           When we're low low low
                           The fire burns from better days
                           And she screams why oh why			
                           I said I don't know
                           The catastrophic hymns from yesterday
                           Of Misery
                           

Wake up, the house is on fire
                           And the cat's caught in the dryer
                           Philosophy's a liar when
                           Your home is your headstone			
                           Icon is the last chance for hope
                           When there's no such thing as heroes
                           Your faith lies in the ditch
                           That you dug yourself in
                           
                           Last chance to piss it all away
                           Nothing but hell to pay				
                           When the lights are going down
                           
                           Deadbeat holiday, celebrate your own decay
                           There's a vacant sign that's hanging high
                           On a noose over your home			
                           Deatbeat holiday, get on your knees and pray
                           There's a vacant sign that's hanging high
                           But at least you're not alone
                           
                           Christmas lights in the middle of August
                           Grudges come back to haunt us
                           Your oldest allies				
                           Are your long lost enemies
                           Grounded in a duplex to find
                           That you're living on a landmine
                           Vacation hotspots
                           Is a cemetary drive
                           
                           Last chance to piss it all away
                           Nothing but hell to pay				
                           When all you wanna do
                           Is not to give up
                           

My mental stability reaches its bitter end
                           As I step to the edge
                           Of a shadow of a doubt
                           With my conscience beating
                           Like the pulse of a drum
                           that hammers on and on
                           As I reach the break of day
                           As the sun beats down			
                           On the halfway house
                           Has my conscience beating
                           The sound in my ear
                           The will to persevere
                           As I reach the break of day
                           
                           When you've lost all hope
                           And excuses
                           And the cheapskates and the losers
                           Nothing's left to cling on to		
                           You gotta hold on...
                           Hold on to yourself
                           
                           A cry of hope, a plea for peace
                           And my conscience beating
                           It's not what I want
                           For it's all that I need
                           To reach the break of day
                           So I run to the edge		
                           Beyond the shadow of a doubt
                           With my conscience bleeding
                           Here lies the truth
                           The lost treasures of my youth
                           As i hold to the break of day
                           

To know you is to hate you
                           So loving you must be like suicide
                           Well I don't mind			
                           If you don't mind
                           Hell, I am not the one that's gonna die
                           
                           I guess I just can't listen
                           To this one-sided conversation again
                           Well I don't care			
                           If I don't care
                           No one ever said that life was fair
                           
                           Well everybody loves a joke
                           But no one likes a fool
                           And you're always crackin
                           The same old lines again		
                           You're well rehearsed on every verse
                           And that was stated clear
                           But no one understands your verity
                           
                           The center of attention
                           And an honorable mention once again
                           Congratulations				
                           And salutations
                           You're a figment of your own imagination
                           
                           To know you is to bait you
                           And you fell victim to your own denial
                           Well I don't mind			
                           If you dont mind
                           You're was...ting...all...your...time
                           
                           

I've been waiting a long time
                           For this moment to come			   
                           I'm destined for anything at all
                           
                           Downtown lights will be shining
                           On me, like a new diamond
                           Ring out, under the midnight hour	  
                           Well no one can touch me now
                           And I can't turn my back
                           It's too late, ready or not at all
                           
                           Well I'm so much closer than
                           I have ever known...			
                           Wake up!
                           
                           Dawning of a new era
                           Calling, don't let it catch ya
                           Falling, ready or not at all		
                           So close, enough to taste it
                           I can almost embrace this
                           Feeling, on the tip of my tongue
                           
                           You better thank your lucky stars
                           
                           Dumbstruck, colour me stupid
                           Good luck, you're gonna need it		  
                           Where I'm going, if i get there at all
                           
                           Wake up!				
                           You better thank your lucky stars!
                           

I wanna be the minority
                           I don't need your authority         
                           Down with the moral majority
                           'Cause I wanna be the minority
                           
                           I pledge allegiance
                           To the underworld
                           One nation underdog
                           There of which I stand alone          
                           A face in the crowd
                           Unsung against the mold
                           Without a doubt, singled out
                           The only way I know
                           
                           Stepped out of the line
                           Like a sheep run from the herd
                           Marching out of time               
                           To my own beat now...
                           The only way I know
                           
                           One light, one mind
                           Flashing in the dark
                           Blinded by the silence
                           Of a thousand broken hearts           
                           "For crying out loud"
                           She screamed unto me
                           A free for all, fuck 'em all
                           You are your own sight
                           
                           I wanna be the minority   (x4)
                           

Today's the Macy's Day parade
                           The night of the living dead is on it's way
                           With a credit report for duty call		
                           It's a lifetime guarantee
                           Stuffed in a coffin, 10% more free
                           Red light special at the mausoleum
                           
                           Give me something that I need
                           Satifaction guaranteed to you
                           What's the consolation prize?			
                           Economy sized dreams of hope
                           
                           When I was a kid, I thought
                           I wanted all the things that I haven't got
                           Oh, but I learned the hardest way		
                           Then I realized what it took
                           To tell the difference between thieves and crooks
                           A lesson learned to me and you
                           
                           Give me something that I need			
                           Satisfaction guaranteed
                           
                           Because I'm thinkin about a brand new hope
                           The one I've never known			
                           Cuz now I know it's all that I wanted
                           
                           What's the consolation prize?
                           Economy sized dreams of hope
                           Give me something that I need
                           Satisfaction guaranteed
                           
                           Because I'm thinkin about a brand new hope
                           The one I've never known
                           And where it goes
                           And I'm thinkin about the only road		
                           The one I've never known
                           And where it goes
                           And I'm thinkin about a brand new hope
                           The one I've never known
                           'Cause now I know it's all that I wanted
                           
                           

 

 

 

 

 

Bring in the head of the government
The dog ate the document
Somebody shot the president
And no one knows where maria went?
Maria, maria, maria,
Where did you go?...
Be careful what you're offering
Your breath lacks the conviction
Drawing the line in the dirt
Because the last decision
...is no.

 

I'll be there for you
Where there's the truth,
You know i'll be there
Amongst the lies,
You know i'll be there
I'll go anywhere,
So i'll see you there
If you should fall, you know i'll be there
To catch the call, you know i'll be there
I'll go anywhere, so i'll see you there

 

 

And i think that it's all right,
That i do what i like,
Cuz that's the way i wanna live.
And so i give, and i'm still givin'...

You know that...
I know that...
You're watchin' me!

And i think that it's all right,
That i do what i like,
Cuz that's the way i wanna live.
And so i give, and i'm still givin'...

Gotta make a plan,
Gotta do what's right,
Can't run around in circles,
If you wanna build a life,
But i don't wanna make a plan,
For a day far away,
While i'm young and while i'm able,
All i wanna do is...

 

 

 

 

3 AM, I'm drunk again,
My head is standing underneath my puke,
So make it stop, I'm getting off.
Make it stop, I'm getting off.
Sedatives and dizzy spells
And feeling like a salad in my puke,
So make it stop, I'm getting off.
Make it stop I'm getting off.

Well, slipped into a coma once again.
Where's my organ donor?
Lend a hand.

So when you think you're all alone,
No one's left to come around,
Drop like flies and empathize,
Cause I know that I will someday,
And I know that I will suffocate,
Suffocate, suffocate, suffocate.

One night stands and cheap regrets,

I take another drag off of my cigarette,
So stop, I'm getting off.
Make it stop, I'm getting off.
One last stop for one track mind,
Just give me shelter, give me give me something.
Make it stop, I'm getting off.
Make it stop, I'm getting off.

Well, slipped into a coma once again.
Where's my organ donor?
Lend a hand.

So when you think you're all alone,
No one's left to come around,
Drop like flies and empathize,
Cause I know that I will someday,
And I know that I will suffocate,
Suffocate, suffocate, suffocate.

 

 

(Verse 1)
Clenching my teeth tight
My head is like a sponge
Give it to me free

(Chorus)
I wanna get ripped off
And drown in the airwaves
Another fatal wreck
On the information highway
So go ahead and kill yourselves
It all amuses me
But I'll be damned to spend my life in hell

Another wise ingrate

(Verse 2)
Bring me blood and pain
From a stranger's fate
Give it all away

(Verse 3)
I'm desensitized
I wanna watch the bomb
Blow the masses high

(Chorus)
(Verse 2)
(Chorus)

 

 

Pinocchio has pierced your tongue
Your nose is growin' into the 3rd dimension
Well reality is due What you say just can't be true
When the story is stretched and so far fetched
That you're lacking an excuse
You Lied
Well reality is due What you say just can't be true
When the story is stretched and so far fetched
That you're lacking an excuse
You Lied

 

 

(Chorus)
I'm an outsider, outside of everything
I'm an outsider, outside of everything
I'm an outsider, outside of everything
Everything you know, everything you know
It disturbs me so

(Verse)
Everybody tried to push me, push me around

Everybody tried put me, tried to put me down

(Bridge)

All messed up everyone
I've already had all my fun
More troubles are gonna come
I've already had all my fun
Oh yeah yeah yeah

 

Don't want to have you hanging
Around me like a leech
I think your just a problem
So stay the hell away from me
Because I don't believe in you
And I wanna sit here all my life alone
This may sound a little rough
Don't want to fall in love


Don't need security
I ain't no dog without a bone

Don't have no time for love
So stay the fuck away from me
Because I don't believe in you


And I wanna sit here all my life alone
This may sound a little rough
Don't want to fall in love
This may sound a little fucked
Don't want to fall in love

 

Instrumental...

 

Wanna be a pretty boy
Wanna go on Solid Gold
Wanna date a millionaire
Wanna make people stare

I wanna be on T.V.
Want people to know me
I want to be on T.V.
Started out in 64
Gonna be an omnivore

Wanna make people dance
Gonna take off my pants


On a magazine
Gonna have some free cocain
Wanna wear my Calvin Kleins
Then the world will be all mine

 

(Verse 1)
You come around every now and then
Your clothes are different but you're still the same
Why else would you come here?
Scumbag on a mission
You're telling me that it's been awhile
Shit-eating grin and a brand new lie
Somebody let you come here
Scumbag with permission

(Chorus 1)
Never thought I'd see
The likes of you around this place
What's the special occasion?
Did you run out of friends?

(Verse 2)
Here you are, comin 'round again
And things are different but you still pretend

You've got a reason to come here
Scumbag with ambition
And now you're telling me that things have changed
And you'll be leavin in a couple of days
You're gonna change the world someday
Scumbag with a vision

(Chorus 2)
It must be nice to know
You've got it all figured out
But from where I'm sittin
It's the same thing again and again

(Bridge)

(Chorus 3)
You never stop to think
Before you open up your mouth
Cuz every time you do
It's the same thing again and again

 

 

 

 

 

Losin' faith and you still don't know what to do sick of me
Losin' health and now you hate everything and you're sick of me
It's a waste but we still keep on tryin' you're sick of me
So you got your problems
So you got it alright
Do you have a conscience?
Do you have a reason?
Well I'm sick of you too.

 

 

20lbs of trust
Whisper, are you dying in my ear?
Black rose of death
In my fast like lunch
Thorns shred my finger tips
And drips toxic blood
I'm rotting inside
My flesh turns to dust
Whisper,are you dying in my ear?
Kiss me one last time
Wipe off my sweat
Whisper, are you dying in my ear?
Whisper, are you dying in my ear?

 

You take the repurcussions
Headaches and anxieties
Advancing my frustrations

Rush into my depression
Sacrifice everything
Waste with me into nothing
Well now you're stuck with me

Hand up your soul to my wrist
And I'll vow my trust to you
Moving on and I always thought
I realized you've imagined.

 

 

For my actions because it's been so long
Since i've been in love

That special kind of feeling
Guess my best excuse
I'm on the wagon again

Well I got no real excuse
I'm on the wagon again
Hey

 

In loving memory
Of your demise

When your ship is going down
I'll go out and paint the town
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead

(ha ha ha)

Ha Ha you're dead
The joke is over
You were an asshole
And now you're gone
As your ship is going down
I'll stand by and watch you drown

Ha Ha you're dead
You're gonna be dead
Just remember what I said
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Miss me